coffee shops and conversations

I had an hour conversation with my best friend Amy two nights ago. She lives in Sacramento and I met her in my last two years of college. We’ve always been so honest and candid in our conversations. When I lived in Sacramento we would meet at the coffee shop and talk and talk and talk. And something about this simple past time felt so perfect and so right.

The other night we were talking about this along with the fact that it’s hard to find a balance in life. As you grow older you still want to be young and as you gain new friends, new interest, and new hobbies, it’s hard to find a middle ground between all of them. So often we tend to do one thing for way too long, push all other interest and pieces of ourselves aside. And then, not too long after we begin to feel the pieces that make us who we are truly start to die.

I’ve done this with my schooling. Because of the time I spend doing school, I’ve pushed things like taking baths, coffee shop time, reading magazines, listening to records, walking around, taking nacho (my dog) to the dog park, and so many other things, I’ve pushed aside. And though my school does take precedence, I still feel an absent, missing feeling.

This is why I have been so excited about school ending on the 19th. I feel as though I get my life back for a month until school starts again. I got a battery charger for my camera so I can start taking photos again, I got postcards – 3 different kinds – so I can start writing again, I bough cleanly supplies and scrubbed my tub so I can take baths again, and soon, very soon, I will find a magazine store.

Along with this, I leave for New York in 3 weeks and 2 days. My first time there, something so big, so new, I’ve never seen. And then I go to Delaware to visit TJ’s grandma. Good food and the beach. Just two months away. And my mom, she’s coming to visit and I look forward to dragging her around everywhere, taking her to the bakery, the beach, the space needle, the market, the lookout point, Solo, everything.

There is much too look forward to, much to feel alive about, and much to be excited for.

6 more days, one more paper, and an ad

It's amazing how such a simple thing, time, is taken for granted. I've worked full time since I got my BA. And I spent a year out of school before I started grad school. I had from 5pm till the time I went to bed to do what I wanted in that year. And yet I can't remember on thing that I did in those hours. And now, within the last year, 6pm till 10:30 being devoted to school work, I have had no time to do anything and wish I have more time to do everything.

I can't wait for just time, time do do anything. Sleep, take baths, cook dinner, use my step machine, write, read, listen to records, and so on.

I've got 6 more days of school and then summer break. As time has been freeing up I've had time to start doing the things I love doing. The first thing being sending postcards. I've finally had time to search some out, purchase them, and actually send three out.

As time continues to free up, I can't wait for all the other things I will get to do. 6 more days, one more paper, one more ad.

it was bound to happen

NEW ORDER SUPPOSEDLY SPLIT



"New Order have split up, according to bassist Peter Hook.

As previously reported the band denied they were splitting earlier this year despite drummer Stephen Morris being quoted as saying: "We should stop for a while."

Speaking about his involvement in Perry Farrell's Satellite Party, Peter Hook told Xfm that the band have broken up.

He said: "I spoke to Perry, and he asked me to play bass, as he'd heard about New Order splitting up. Well yeah, me and Bernard (Sumner) aren't working together."

When asked if the split was permanent, he added: "Bernard went off for a break with Electronic, but that was different. But it's like the boy who cried wolf this time."


Listen to the full interview Online on XFM."